reality kicking in!!!

After a long sleepless night i cleaned for most of the day and decided not to mourn the recent decision that jennifer made about our realtionship. My sister finally came home after not being her for the last day and pretty much forced me to apply for home depot and college... After i finished both i felt accomplished and that life has started for me. kinda scary at first but im pretty sure i'll get the hang of it...hopefully. Today i also had a chance to text my youth pastor and he gave me a word of God and told me to keep my head up. i felt better but i still miss what i had with jennifer. even though she is completely over me im going to wait even if it wastes my time. she will know that i was gonna stay with her no matter what..i have nothing else to say but Let God deliver you from the pain or whats holding you down. Because Deliverence is yours tonight. Amen and Goodbye