mmm....sleep

Unfourtunaley for me I would have been better of with another sleepless night. I had a dream about her and when I awoke I was crying. I miss her so much, I am not used to not having her and to tell you the truth I want her in my arms right now. I dont get why I am like this sometimes I'm strong and I make myself believe I'm happy and other days I'm like this. What sucks is there are more times I am depressed then I am happy. So I got up washed my face and sat down at my laptop. And there it was it hit me like a natrual disaster, tears had started and they didn't stop I can't be happy. I looked to my right and I saw the picture of us with our matching hollister shirts. One of the things I had neglected to put away so i grabbed it put it in the box and the pictures of my wall too. There was still one thing that I had that kept me bounded to her and that was my ring. A ring that everytime I looked at it told me lies. "Forever Love" something I wish could happen but I guess she doesn't care about the promise. I tried to take off the ring but I just can't its my promise to her also and I am going to stick to that promise that my love for her will never end. I just wish we could be happy together but it seems like that can't happen. I think it can she just doesn't believe it. Well I'm done with this blog. bye